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John 14:6 - My Personal Testimony

Updated: Apr 28, 2022

Jesus said to him, "I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me." John 14:6

My testimony is a work in progress. It's my story of coming to true saving faith in Christ in which my life has been transformed by the power of Jesus Christ. I use my testimony as a platform to also teach and explain what it means to have authentic saving faith and be a true follower of Jesus Christ. I wrote my testimony so that it may be a light and blessing to others, and ultimately, I wrote it all for the glory of God. May God give you the grace to read all the way to the end, and may you take from it what you wish. God bless. Love, Jenna

The Holy Spirit Testifies to the Truth

The Holy Spirit was sent into the world to testify about Jesus Christ. He was sent into the hearts of true believers to bear witness of the Truth in Jesus. Therefore, it’s the Holy Spirit who bears witness of the Truth through me as a Christian. It’s those who have walked with Christ who are the eyewitnesses of Christ for the rest of the watching world. It’s those who have seen firsthand who Jesus Christ is and how He can transform a life by the power of the gospel; how He can take a life and radically change it from darkness to light, from dead in sin to alive in Christ, from the broad and easy road to hell to the narrow path to life. That's the power of the Gospel of Jesus Christ.

You yourselves are our letter of recommendation, written on our hearts, to be known and read by all. And you show that you are a letter from Christ delivered by us, written not with ink but with the Spirit of the living God, not on tablets of stone but on tablets of human hearts (2 Corinthians 3:2-3). More than just writing His Law on stone, God writes His Law on the hearts of those whose lives He transforms. We don't become a Christian just because we attend church, graduate confirmation class in 8th grade, practice good morals, or even because we get baptized when we're 3 months old. We don't become a Christian just because we receive some certificate or letter with a church official's stamp of approval on it.

As a Christian, I don't have a letter written in ink that will fade. The letter I have as a believer is a living one, and it's written on the tablet of my heart by Christ's own divine power through the transforming work of the Holy Spirit. I became a Christian when I repented of my sins and believed in the Gospel of Jesus Christ, all by the grace of God. I became a Christian when I was saved by grace through faith in Christ alone, and that's when the Holy Spirit came upon me (Acts 1:8). That's when I became a living testimony to the power of the gospel, and this is my personal testimony of coming to true saving faith in Jesus Christ, my Lord and Savior.

For you will be a witness for him to everyone of what you have seen and heard. Acts 22:15

But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit has come upon you, and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the end of the earth. Acts 1:8

Blinded by My Own Truth

I will start off by saying John 14:6 is the most powerful verse in the entire Bible to me. If you want to hear God speak directly to you and transform your mind and heart, read His Word. If you want to know who God is and who You are in Him, read His Word. In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God (John 1:1).

Before coming to true saving faith in Christ, I had a universal way of looking at God. I believed there were many paths that led to heaven and that all religions worshipped the same God in their own unique ways. I thought that everyone who believed in the existence of a higher power was saved and went to heaven. I had a hard time thinking anyone went to hell, simply because I didn't want people to go there. That thought created a lot of discomfort in me, to the point where I chose not even to believe in the reality of hell. I made it up in my mind that God saved everybody, no matter what they believed, so as long as they believed in a higher power outside of themselves. I didn't really know what to make of atheists or how to categorize them according to my own personal truth so I simply didn't address that category of people when it came to thinking about the afterlife. Whatever made me most comfortable about spirituality, that's what I believed.

I thought everyone was a "child of God" by default, when in reality we are all born in sin. According to Scripture, we are actually all children of wrath by default (Ephesians 2:3-4). Only until we are converted by the grace of God on His appointed time, do we become children of God and officially join His kingdom. Now I understand that according to Scripture my default destination had always been hell since birth, not heaven, as I had ignorantly and self-righteously believed - as if I was automatically entitled to heaven based off my own justifications. Jesus said the only way a person can enter the kingdom of heaven is by being born again. Jesus answered him, “Truly, truly, I say to you, unless one is born again he cannot see the kingdom of God” (John 3:3). Jesus warns people of the dangers of hell far more than He ever spoke about the glories of heaven. Jesus warns people of hell over 70 times in the New Testament, which in total there is a 162 warnings for us to listen to. Jesus tells us that if we don’t repent of our sins and believe the gospel that we will all perish. Jesus says we must be born again to enter heaven. I now trust every single word Jesus says, and I don't take anything He says lightly. The most responsible thing any Christian could ever do in this lifetime is to biblically examine to see if we're truly in the faith. Examine yourselves, to see whether you are in the faith. Test yourselves. Or do you not realize this about yourselves, that Jesus Christ is in you?—unless indeed you fail to meet the test! (2 Corinthians 13:5).

By trusting in my feelings and in my own relative truth, I made it up in my mind that the God of the Bible was also the god of all religions, where everyone was saved. That made me feel much more comfortable and also "righteous" in my own thinking. I thought I was being kind and loving in believing that because it was promoting world unity and peace. I encouraged people to believe whatever they wanted and do whatever they wanted, whenever they wanted. I encouraged people to just be their "true authentic selves," to "live their own truth," to do whatever felt right to them personally, and just do whatever made them "happy," (even if that meant sinful choices, behavior, and offenses against a Holy God). In actuality, I was just affirming people in their sins and own relative truths. See, deep down, I just really didn't want to offend anyone because I wanted to be accepted by everyone, (which wasn't loving at all, but selfish of me). Little did I know that my "lovingkindness" was geared towards supporting things that were harmful to people, and in the end, damning to their souls.

See, Jesus didn't come to affirm us in our sins and accept us just the way we are. He came to save us from our sins, convict us of them, call us to repentance, and transform our hearts and minds to live a life glorifying to God. That's what true love does. True love does not delight at wrongdoing, but rejoices in the truth (1 Corinthians 13:6). Deep down, I even prided myself on having my own "noble and righteous" truth of God. When in reality, my relative truth couldn't help nor save me or anybody, and neither could theirs. My relative truth was garbage, self-deceptive, and trying to drag me to hell.

A god of My Own Imagination

What I had really done was form a god of my own imagination; a god who I was comfortable with; a god who "understood me" in my sins instead of convicting me of them; a god who I didn't submit to; a universal jesus who took on the name and form of all religions outside of Christianity, cheapening His deity and radically distorting the real Truth. I had formed a god in my own image; a god who was like me; a god who also affirmed everyone in their sins instead of lovingly calling them to repentance in order to be saved. I claimed to be "super spiritual" but not "religious," yet still falsely professed to be a Christian, when I was anything but a true Christian. I also claimed to be not like other Christians who are "so judgmental." I prided myself on being a "non-judgmental" Christian, when I had no idea what it even meant to be judgmental versus to righteously judge, according to Jesus Himself. Judge not, or you too will be judged (Matthew 7.1). We must read the rest of the context that verse is in! We can't just read one verse that calls for context to be properly understood. We will only be deceiving ourselves when we do that and abusing Scripture to try and suit us. This verse is often abused by the entire world! To understand that verse accurately, read Matthew 7:1-6, and Matthew 7:13-20.

See, mere verbal professions of faith in Christ mean absolutely nothing unless they are proven by actions; by the obedience to the Word of God; by the real desire to obey His Word. I was an example of an empty profession of faith in God, and I was the most "spiritual" person I knew. See, the thing is, even demons are spiritual and believe there's a God (James 2:19). However, the big difference is that demons don't submit to Christ as Lord or live in the Truth. And like the demons, I was believing there was a God, but I too wasn't submitting to Him. In fact, I was outright rebelling and didn't even know it.

Taking an important detour now

Millions of people assent to the facts of the gospel and intellectually agree in a positive way that Jesus Christ died for their sins and rose again. This category of people tends to also believe that God's grace allows for unrepentant sin. Unfortunately, many people believe they can just continue living for themselves; living in self-sufficiency; living however they please; living in sin. So as long as they intellectually agree and even firmly believe the facts of the gospel, they think they are saved, yet are tragically self-deceived. First off, that is not what God's grace means according to Scripture. God's grace is given to those who put their trust in Him so that we may have the power by the Holy Spirit to choose what is good, right, and true, and to glorify Him. With the Holy Spirit living inside of believers, He is given us the grace so that we can choose to obey God and express our trust and love to Him. His grace is sufficient. When we are born again, sin no longer has power or dominion over us because we are no longer under law, but under grace. And second off, to just simply agree with the facts of the gospel is to fall epically short of saving faith. Before we continue with my testimony, let's address something very important we all need to know: the definition of faith according to the Word of God and not according to our own personal truths, based off notions and feelings. This is something I wish someone would have told me in the past, if given the chance, and so I would like to be that person for you now.

The Three Elements of True Saving Faith

1. An intellectual element (notitia), which is a positive recognition of the truth

2. An emotional element (assensus), which includes a deep conviction and affirmation of the truth

3. And finally, a volitional element (fiducia), which involves a personal trust in Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior. This includes a genuine surrendering to His Lordship. (Meaning, you will have a real desire to obey the Word of God when you truly trust Him and His goodness for your life). Obedience to God's Word is simply the by-product and outward expression of your faith in Him. Obeying God's Word is proof that your faith is real. Faith and obedience are inseparable. You can't have one without the other. They go hand-in-hand. They are two sides of the same coin. For the whole world knows that actions speak louder than words. Well, that basic, universal principle also applies to expressing faith in God.

The words faith and obedience / believe and obey / disbelieve and disobey are synonymous throughout all of Scripture, and they are the exact same words in the original Greek. Whoever believes in the Son has eternal life; whoever does not obey the Son shall not see life, but the wrath of God remains on him (John 3:36). To not believe the gospel is to simply disobey God, since the Word of God commands us to believe in the sacrifice of His Son, the gospel. And to know the Truth yet still not obey God is to not believe in God or the gospel.

Modern popular theology tends to recognize notitia and often assensus, but far too often eliminates fiducia. This is called "Easy Believeism" which is a very popular, modern-day Christianity that runs rampant in the church. It is heretical, a radical distortion of God's Word, and yet just another layer of Satan's deception to steal away souls to hell. See, faith is not authentic saving faith if it lacks the attitude of genuine repentance and a genuine surrender to Christ's authority and Lordship. Obviously, we are all fallen, we will all still sin, even as Christians (more than we even realize), and we will never obey God's Word perfectly. But nonetheless, true Christians desire to obey God's Word, and we do experience real victory over sin, as God sanctifies us unto glorification.

True Christians will still sin, but we will never return to the broad and easy road and swim in sin ever again. It is impossible for real Christians to make a practice of sinning when we are practicing righteousness. With the Holy Spirit living in us, we will be convicted of our sin before we could ever swim in it again. No one born of God makes a practice of sinning, for God's seed abides in him; and he cannot keep on sinning, because he has been born of God (1 John 3:9). We are all born in sin, and that's why we must be born again. I used to be an example of someone who professed to believe in God, but my actions said otherwise, until I was born again. Verbal professions of faith in God are empty and futile if someone's actions continue to deny God. They profess to know God, but by their actions they deny him (Titus 1:16).

Now, back to my testimony:

Relying on my own feelings and personal definition of what I thought faith and spirituality was to me, certainly couldn't save me. I was blinded by my own meanings I attached to spiritual things, and in reality I was spiritually dead. I had no idea what authentic faith meant, what it meant to be a true Christian, or what it meant to follow Jesus Christ and be His real disciple. I thought spirituality was relative to everyone, and I fell for the lie of the new age that there was no absolute truth. No matter what I believed, how true I was to my "authentic self," what my personal preferences were on who God was, what my own standards were, what my own definition of faith and grace were, how much I prayed / praised / thanked the god of my own imagination, or how sincere I was in my beliefs - it certainly couldn’t change reality.

"The Truth is that which corresponds to reality only as it is perceived by God. It's because God sees reality in its fullest measure, from the perfect perspective, in the depth and of its dimension, as well as the surface. All things are known to Him. From the perspective of the One who is omniscient, there is such thing as an objective reality. And in fact, our eternal destinies will be determined by God's perception of reality, not ours." - RC Sproul

It's My Own Responsibility

In reality, I was lacking biblical truth and divine wisdom, and I simply didn't know that I didn't know. I was ignorant. However, I would only have myself to blame for that, wouldn't I? It is my own responsibility in this life to know and understand what God's Word says and to not be ignorant to His commands and promises; to not be careless with my own soul in this short life.

Heads up, about to take another detour now

That responsibility is laid on every single one of us in this life, and we either choose to know, understand, and take God's Word seriously, or we choose to live in la-la land, meaning "live on the edge" with our eternal souls. This life is very short, and eternity is very long, so it is only wise and logical to live this short life in the light of eternity. Denial to the existence of God when we have clear proof all around us of a Creator, or ignorance to His Word for those who have access to Bibles will not be an excuse for anyone when we stand before Him on Judgment Day. The wrath of God is revealed from heaven against all ungodliness and unrighteousness of men who suppress the truth in unrighteousness (Romans 1:18). There is a special wrath of God reserved for people who have the Truth, yet suppress it. Even the unbelieving world or people who follow other beliefs and false religions are responsible for knowing the Truth, and they are guilty for suppressing it. On Judgement Day, they will stand guilty no matter what their reason was, where they were born, who their parents were, how they were raised, what their background was, what religion they grew up in, or what their personal preferences were. Everyone will be culpable for rejecting Scripture, which ultimately is rejecting Jesus Christ - the way, the Truth, and the life. And God will judge each and every person with absolute righteousness and perfect judgment.

We can't say that the Bible is only clear to believers. In reality, the unbeliever is just as culpable for the rejection of the Word of God because of its power, authority, clarity, and sufficiency. Because that which is known about God is made evident within us, God has also made evident to us. This means that Scripture directly correlates with what God has placed in the heart of every man. The Moral Law (The 10 Commandments) is written in the heart of every man, sewn into the conscience of every man, and is universal to everyone who has ever lived. Romans 2:15 says, They show that the requirements of the law are written on their hearts, their consciences also bearing witness, and their thoughts sometimes accusing them and at other times even excusing them. Furthermore, Romans 1:20 says, For since the creation of the world God’s invisible qualities—his eternal power and divine nature—have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that people are without excuse.

Not only did God graciously give us Scripture; the manual with clear instructions to life itself (including eternal life) and who He is, God also gave us the incredible gift of our consciences, which is our souls' built-in warning system. Our own consciences are there to help guide us on the safe and good path He has for us, and they are there to warn us of what is harmful and dangerous to our souls. One thing is for sure, we will do well to listen to our consciences, always. Unfortunately, for many people who continue to go against their consciences over a long period of time, it gets easier to do so, and they become faulty, seared, and simply don't work very well anymore - to the point of no return often times. "It is so deadly to misinform the conscience that it can become so convoluted to the point where people glory in their shame" - John MacArthur in reference to Philippians 3:19: Their end is destruction, their god is their belly, and they glory in their shame, with minds set on earthly things. Isaiah 5:20 goes on to say, Woe to those who call evil good and good evil.

A seared conscience is an absolute tragedy because the conscience is our ally, our true friend. Our consciences either accuse us or excuse us from our sins. And so, we are without excuse when we stand before God one day and have to give an account for every last thing we thought, said, and did, when we knew better. We can't say we didn't know because God gave us our consciences, and He also gave us His Word to fully inform our consciences with the Truth. God's divine power gave us everything pertaining to life and godliness (2 Peter 1:3), and it's simply a choice we all make in this preparatory life to either reject the Word of God, diminish it, ignore it, or trust it and obey Him with joy.

"You see the conscience functions like a skylight, not like a lamp. It doesn't have a light of its own. It can only let light through. It's not the source of light. It does not produce its own light. It can only let light into the soul, and therefore it needs to have the right information. Its usefulness is determined by the amount of pure light passing through it. So a fully functioning conscience then is fully informed by the truth of God's Word." - John MacArthur

"Ignorance of Scripture is the most dangerous self-inflicted wound." - Dale Partridge.

"Satan’s greatest weapon is man’s ignorance of God’s Word." – A.W. Tozer.

The Word of God is Better than Gold (Proverbs 16:16)

God's Word says people perish without knowledge. My people are destroyed from lack of knowledge. Because you have rejected knowledge, I also reject you as my priests; because you have ignored the law of your God, I also will ignore your children. (Hosea 4:6). Knowledge is power. Knowledge of who God is and who we are in Him, is how we learn and grow spiritually; it's how we build our faith and relationship with Jesus Christ. Without the knowledge of God's Word, we simply cannot grow spiritually or know who God is. How can someone trust someone they don't even know or care to get to know? I was an example of someone who professed to know God but didn't even read the manual on who God was. I only knew the god of my own imagination - and that god simply did not exist. That's an empty profession of faith in God!

This is why Bibles are incredibly precious to those in foreign countries who don't have access to them; places where the Bible is banned; places where people get killed for having God's Word in their possession. The Word of God is better than gold, and many people in the United States take for granted the precious, infinite value of the Word of God. How blessed are we to have access to God's Word! What could be better than holding the invaluable Word of God right in the palms of our hands? For wisdom is more precious than rubies, and all that you desire cannot compare with her (Proverbs 8:11). How much better to acquire wisdom than gold! To gain understanding is more desirable than silver (Proverbs 16:16).

Everything pertaining to life and godliness has been freely given to us in Scripture. (2 Peter 1:3). It's all right there for us, folks. The Word of God gives us every answer and everything we need to know to live a purposeful, meaningful, fulfilling life, headed for eternal life and glory. And we ought never to trust in our minds or feelings over the Word of God. Whoever trusts in his own mind is a fool, but he who walks in wisdom will be delivered (Proverbs 28:26). In Proverbs 1:20-33, wisdom is personified and described as someone you can "get to know." Scripture says that Jesus Christ has become to us wisdom from God (1 Corinthians 1:30). Therefore, wisdom and spiritual discernment is something that comes from knowing Jesus Christ, and the fear of the Lord is the beginning of all wisdom (Proverbs 9:10). (Fear means awe, reverence, deep respect for God). And here's the thing, you cannot truly come to know Jesus Christ if you do not care to know His Word too. That's because Jesus Christ is His Word. The two are inseparable. In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God (John 1:1). And how can you truly trust someone you don't know or care to get to know? And how do you truly love someone you don't know or trust? Without knowing Christ through His Word, you will only end up loving a Jesus of your own imagination, an idol and not the real Jesus, the only One who can save you. Scripture is infinitely more precious than all the gold in the world. It's your path to eternal path. Your Word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path (Psalm 119:105).

Ok, back to my testimony now:

The Root of All Sin

In my own ignorance, my Facebook cover photo for a year said “Live for God,” and at that time I really had no idea what that meant. I thought I was living for God - yeah, based on my own truth! In reality, I was living for myself, having all sorts of idols in my life, thinking I was a "good person," priding myself on being kind, wanting to please everyone and be liked by everyone, having wisdom in my own eyes, relying on my own self-sufficiency to direct my life, having no fear of God, basically living in sin, and simply having no idea what true saving faith really meant for a sinner like me. I figured that I did "way more good" than bad in this world, and by virtue of that and sincerely believing in the existence of God, I'd be going to heaven.

I considered myself a "good" person. When in reality, there has only been one good person in this world, and that is the person of Jesus Christ. Another trap is that we often compare ourselves to others whom we think are not as "good" as we are - which further gives us a false sense of being good ourselves through our own relative truths and definitions. I not only had a radically distorted view of God, but I had a distorted view of self. I was being utterly self-righteous without even knowing it.

Sure, I would openly admit that I was a sinner. I had no problem with saying that out loud. A lot of people in the world readily admit that. However, the big problem was that I didn't understand that gravity of my own sin, and I didn't hate my sin. I loved my sin, and I thought it was no big deal. I wasn't convicted of my sin, and I based my eternal destiny off my own scale of goodness. I figured I did more good than bad, according to my own personal standards and feelings. I justified myself with my own fallen conscience and the world's deceptive standards and not by Scripture and God's perfect standards. See, the world isn't going to be judging me, but God will surely be judging me. That would be wise to get on His scale then, right? I also ignorantly had my own definition of God's grace. I just casually believed He died for my sins and casually assumed His grace covered all my unrepentant sin. That's because I also had my own skewed definition of faith which skewed my definition of grace. I figured I wholeheartedly and positively believed in God's existence and sovereignty, I did more good than bad according to my own standards, and that would be sufficient to grant me entrance into His eternal kingdom.

See, it's pride that blinds us from what is really true, right, and good. Pride was so blinding that I had no idea I was being proud or self-righteous until God's grace opened my eyes to the Truth. Pride is the root of all sin, and it's ultimately what keeps billions of people from seeing the light of the gospel. Pride is what begins and fuels every single sin in us. Pride is what ultimately drags people to hell, and I was on that broad and easy road to hell because of my own pride, ignorance, and spiritual blindness. (Yes, my name was written in the Lamb's Book of Life before the foundation of the world, and I was predestined to come to saving faith and be granted eternal life, but there is also a harmony between God's sovereignty and human responsibility that is simply unavailable to us in this life. I was on the road to hell because of my own ignorance and choices, and it was God's grace that opened my eyes, saved me, and set me on the path to eternal life).

Coming up to another one of my detours here:

My Definition of "Good" Vs God's Definition of Good

"The human dilemma is this: God is holy and we are not. God is righteous and we are not." - RC Sproul. We must first understand that there is a huge gulf that separates sinful man from the Holy God of the universe. Comprehending this truth is vital to having a clear view of objective reality - of who God is, who we are, and just how bad sin really is. Let's first picture the difference between sinful mankind and the Holy God of the universe: